Part 3, Moving Forward.
The Struggle: I struggle to be recognized as more than an NPC but then again being an NPC is the perfect way to dip into the darkness and claim riches, ditch the ethics, become the Countess of Monte Cristo (Metaphorically Speaking). Watching Breaking bad for the first time broke me in a way to finally watch a show I can’t just phone up my mom and talk to her about it but it also broke me in a way I am losing time and more I keep trying to get recognize as more. Maybe it is the after effects of being on the pedestal from the promise to greatness or being told I am a great person being gaslit on both grounds. The struggle begins where I know I can be great and lead and do great things, but the issue is trust and that trust is hard to earn when you feel rejected.
The Rejection: Since my departure from the ISP, on top of my conquering own challenges and breaking my own boundaries to know my actual worth. Like the story of Conan, the Barbarian (movie) where Conan was on the wheel of pain for years and then became a fighter and was set free one day. I can relate this part of my story on that freedom. When he claims his sword he finds his calling, like me I found my “sword” so to speak, I trained myself inside of slavery being a CISO or a cyber security engineer professional on top of many other skills shaping my self to be a master of all. My skills is far greater than I have ever known humbly I’ve been seeking entry level jobs under estimating what I really know and that is what my current role has shown me regardless of what kind of role, it is a survival role do to my enslavement of the ISP and my Axe (metaphorically speaking) is Cyber security based, hacker based.
Moving forward: Vegas Hackware not just my book, it is my Axe and By this Axe, I rule (a reference to Conan the barbarian / Kull the conqueror metaphor). It is my way to move forward, somehow use this as my business to conquer the hearts and my ultimate goal is finally be myself, be needed, be seen, and get out of the desert and move north again give back the ones in need and make a difference to the world and to the communities I reside in. But as I struggle and stuck in survival mode, it is in the end just waiting One day at a time until I can find the right opporunity.
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