Potential new era, Calling for Help.

So recently I shutdown my stream unless I have sometype of motivation or coop streaming to keep going. During the past few days, I’ve been thinking of a way to come back and with that I can use that to push my business VegasHackware more, easier to keep growing my TougeSW and stream that.

I am looking for 5 people and they must be able to become my

  • Helper for Network Marketing IE: grab clips, modify them to  fit social media to grab attention, create clips from my current videos.
  • Dedicated Moderators for both Twitch and Discord.
  • play video games that I also enjoy games like Sea of Thieves, Hunt: Showdown and so on.

What do you get? Sign on after 30 days starting pay of $20 after that you get a split out of 5 ( I get nothing in return). I am willing to give all my sub, ad revenue, and all twitch earnings split 5 ways. (this also includes any donations that isn’t charity raised).

The first 30 days, I am looking to drive up my average viewer count, monthly sub goal 20 to start and really get a momentium to where I can achieve the twitch partnership.

If this fits your bill, please submit to resume[@]WonderingRaven.Net

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End of an Era

End of an Era

I feel like this is an end of an era for me, like an example my last post about WoW must die not just because it’s a milked cow by blizzard but also for me, I don’t find it fun anymore, I used it to hide myself from the world to isolate myself from it and all the trauma and pain. If you have read my book or read my podcasts / listen to, you would see my pain.

I came to terms recently, that I need to make changes in my own life to become successful in areas. I guess the realization became when I took a look at my recent growth on Youtube, I just went from 100 to 169 in a matter of like 4 months and I’ve had that channel open since 2005 when I posted my first video on World of warcraft’s endless 6 months of grinding for the winterspring frostsaber.

So the end of an era begins here, I want to build a business, start a community and do what I’ve dreamed of doing, I’ve been doing nothing but chasing other peoples ideas and dreams thinking I can adopt their ways to be like them but instead I feel like I’ve been more driven away from these ideologies.

I am done crying about it, so I was thinking as I am writing this letter to a judge. I need to focus on my own health, I need to focus on my own growth as I wont and will not grow in either gaming nor cyber security world and here is why:

I wont grow in the gaming world because of the lack of support I’ve gotten from both the communities and dev’s  I’ve made this argument in the past even to the point that the Dev’s rather recruit someone lesser than I am or communities that would promote growth from with in but when I’ve finally ask about it and be apart of it I either become a mod for the communities and / or booted from their communities when I can’t be around at a special time due to a new work schedule.  Being trans, and a gamer at first, I got support, but then I got isolated and ignored to a point my growth was going negative for it and I didn’t do anything and to a point when creators get so high on their growth and they go, “oh you are still around” as if I should have given up years ago attitude. These people are ruthless and maybe when they ask if they are bad people instead of candy coating it, they essentially are bad people. But what can I say I am a no body.  A lot of titles that I’ve applied for as it’s a catch 22 in growth when it comes to me and my own community. I can’t grow if no one wants to help and without something I can’t grow, 10 years though has taught me one thing, anxiety and public speaking is a lot better than it used to be.  It’s just a vicious circle, it’s sad, and because I have nothing to gain from, I wont grow.  Games I loved playing was warframe, reached out and got denied then watched some people ranked much lower on the twitch levels get in but I was left out. Sea of Thieves, that would have been good I had the numbers at one point but same issue, Conan Exiles / Funcom met them at twitch con 23 and ghosted. One that hurt the most was warframe as even I was teach people left and right how to play. One creator that could have helped me, ignored my existence as I served even as their moderator, could have helped me with even tracking down someone from Square Enix that could potentially, with luck recover my old Final Fantasy XI account instead of fighting for years. Instead, I got the boot when I was busy in meeting in my new job. Instead of putting me on their list for technically on vacation. Sad part is I didn’t do anything all I ever did was Exist and ask simple questions and helped out when I could. Then it just became I go live and no one cares, twitter becomes X, and the whole shift goes from twitch advertising to nothing at all.  So, it has to be like this Being a trans streamer on twitch is and has to be over for me, this is an era, as I can’t keep it up any longer, I can’t be recognized as an equal it’s no longer worth it for me.

So, coming down the cyber security train, I did podcasts and a book no one cares tho, I’ve hacked with some great names from ytcracker, razor1911, and even gH (global hell). But I guess until they remember me and gave a shit, I’m like crash override before they knew crash was zero cool. But the real kicker is starting a group with a friend before he moved away, called it dc702 and it has been dragging its feet to kick up a new group, then I get someone coming in my own community and then telling me basically f.u. and a year later finding out they did their own version of dc702 and demands me to point my group over.  I am like I don’t even know these fools, why am I going to do that?  I would have been more than open to partnering up and all I just want is some recognition and participation on a founder’s level. But it is what it is, and they have moved on and so have I. Building my old WRnet like the old days is done, it is also an end of an era before it even started, even with my righteous hack I am still a nobody,

People I knew, friends, family all are dying as we all age. Timing is growing short, even for myself and if you have read my book most of my life was forcefully wasted because of my dreams was held from me.

I’ll be working mostly on promoting my business venture with VegasHackware and my Niche on Youtube from this point forward, going back to drifting as a hobby and hopefully I can get my side hustle moving forward.  If I ever get the spotlight, or inclusion I may be back on twitch streaming again get back to supporting others again, but it is an end to an era as one door closes another is opening.

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Why World of Warcraft needs to die

In summary, I am a world of warcraft veteran, I started playing the beta version in late 2003. I’ve loved the whole humans vs orcs since Warcraft 2, Back in In 2003, I was fighting for my life in a cancer battle. When I was recovering from the chemotherapy, I was invited by a friend of mine who knew an executive at the time into their closed beta. That got me hooked, I purchased the collector’s edition in 2004 upon its final release. Joined the Alliance side with friends from IRC and it was Archimonde. 

World of warcraft was an open world and more of a free will area, you can do a series of Quests if you meet the level requirements and other pre-quests. It was free and open. You can explore and adventure everywhere and not be bothered by random events or forced zoned areas. Burning legion added new levels more areas to explore and some other random for Wrath of the lich king, but shortly after that 

The Items upon the first release of the DLC, the loot of the era. The moment Burning Crusade dropped all items and stuff people worked weeks to months just to gain an edge with epic to legendary rare items. The dlc instead of letting your current armor have a grip on the new DLC, it erased that with the new loot that was “green” uncommon was better than the items you spent hours grinding to complete. This became the meta for all future DLC, and over time this became exhausting including after the release of Battle for Azeroth dropped as it threw away artifact weapons that were buildable to grow with you.

The moment Cataclysm dropped, it changed the game literally, the initial change was starting to be phased in this change is the forced phased content. Alot of animation, lots of new changes and flood the system. Lore changes, system changes, the whole world changes to revamp a full rework to allow flying making taxi service obsolete. 

Mists of pandaria dropped, this DLC is what caused the DLC people hated the most, this causes all new zones in a full phased content. Once again more weapons, items, armors obtained in Catalysm all replaced yet again with uncommon. To even play with anyone they would have to be on the same phase of the story with you, this became the one where questing with friends died off. 

Warlords of Draenor, this dlc dropped and it once again forced phased content but now introduced more achievement driven and months of forced farming to get the achievements just to even fly in the Warlords of Draenor. Repetitive farming was worse than farming for legendary Mounts, and became extremely hard to play. I technically uninstalled after a month of this DLC release as farming became worse and worse and if I recall they started to introduce more pay to win features such as the store offering level up tokens, and tokens you can exchange in game currency for to keep up with your subscription or buy tokens to give to others. 

Legion dropped a good story, same phased content but introduced a feature with artifact weapons and their lore. Possibly the best feature for this DLC, leveling up your weapons along with you. Legion had some good lore, they added factions to this one from void elves, (blood elves for the alliance) and nightborne elves (Night Elves for the horde) but the problem is months and months of more farming for achievements. Took atleast a month to farm and unlock void elves. Dungeon+ modes was introduced iirc this was a bad idea as your awesome build up of the end game will be erased in the new DLC. 

Battle for Azeroth brought Artifact trinkets and kills the artifact weapons to make them useless again, changes alot of the story but same forced phased game play, same months of grinding achievements to unlock various things from flying to more factions. It was really hard to play due to the forced content. To fix the level higher, they readjust it with adding a band-aide to cut how you level up and now with leveling up forced phased content was released for the new game experience. (you can just buy a cheater token from blizzard store and get you 90% complete) 

Shadowlands, Same deal more forced phased content, same all the end game content ruined again with dlc release, more grinding technically this just enabled more of the new game experience with more forced phased content, they cut end game users merged into shadowlands about 10 levels down iirc, or a magic token (you can also buy from the blizzard store) to get you to level 50 where you can level 60 with shadowlands.

Dragonflight, more rinse and repeat again, this time you are down to level 40 from your level 60, same tokens from blizzard to level you to 40 even the new dragon class. At this point, corny graphics, same forced phased content. Adventuring like the old days is just done. Vanilla versions get you to experience the old days but that isn’t the same. 

Any future DLC is going to be the same meta, new story but forced in phased content, new something introduced with farming, but same level now changes again instant relevel again, more farming, more meta end game. 

This game to me is dead, people who keep playing are still playing for the story at this point even though the story is and has been changed alot since release

World of warcraft lost it’s thunder since Cataclysm, what they should have done was never introduced the forced phased content as the world expanded, instead of glorifying their dlc with justification of the new weapons and armors and turn old stuff into legacy stuff. they should have made armors and weapons obtained from the first game as good as the DLC armor with different stats.  Artfact armors and weapons to level up with you they almost had this perfect in Legion with the Weapons. Instead of phased content, they should have changed the game to be moree survival as it is how mmo’s should be focusing on the change glorify the old hard earned work put in. Instead of buttons mashing but more of a control over your avatar utilizing your own party or able to take on boss fights solo to also challenging fights as a team or clan. DLC has re-invented this game multiple times, to make it better and better experience is what needs to keep it relevant, the reason for even souls like survival opens this game up to consoles easier. Forced Phased content needs to go away, return to the social aspect of the game, leave the game open world and return of hidden riddles and clues to find stuff again (the original the ashbringer mystery was the funnest mystery even tho it was a fake mystery this game needed this for a long time now). 

This game was good when it started but now it’s nothing but a milk and repeat process.

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Reworking in planning, updates and such.

Twitch: My stream schedule is mostly from 7:30, or 8pm till late.  Even tho my goal is to hit partnership and make a name for myself my stream has been abandoned by people (story of my life, litterly). So I have to keep this more of a backburner these days, I feel like the days of trying anything is far over.

My car projects: I’ve been focus on my Youtube channel the vlog of various of issues relating to my myself returning to the drift world.

Other  stuff, I have been struggling finanacially I couldn’t have lost my job at a very bad time. I have been on the borderline of loosing my home and everything and become homeless again.  I am still playing catch up, and I am not relaying on a law suite even tho I am in the right and in the favor of a good win.

I’ve released my paperback book finally, I am working on another book on my transition after that I am going to write out my old comic book from school as a creative story series.

I am really tempted to pool together a go fund me to get my business VegasHackware launched.

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Stream – Schedules – and Stuff…

I am live on twitch every night from 7pm PST till late, normally 11pm pst.
My current lineup:
“Game rotation is currently Elden ring, Palworld, Hunt Showdown, Sea of Thieves, or Conan Exiles, with maybe a GTA-Online heist or two”

  • Monday – Game night,
  • Tuesday – Game Night:
  • Wednesday – Game Night or Building in Conan Exiles
  • Thursday – Game Night
  • Friday – Lead with Game Night, Podcast WRnet:sec

Weekends are currently random because, I can’t get a good lineup / setup for a garage streams anymore, I can’t afford track time either.

Current grim situation: walking into 2024 with not a fully functional A/C unit. struggling as due to my sudden loss of a job last year, huge gap of no income, unemployment denied still fighting to get it’s backpay, new job is good for now but that is still causing me to barely catch up, there is days I don’t get to eat anymore just because I am actually broke just days before I get paid. So it has been painful this past last few months.  The 120F is coming again this year,  I’ve survived on no a/c as a child I just get to relive my childhood again.

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Changes – updates and such…

I am still around, new job, better pay, less toxicity(seems to be none). i don’t have to worry about a director making up stories just to destroy my life.

Alot of recent events currently happened recently and it got me thinking, and made a decision.

I am putting my own twitch streams on hold and gaming pretty much I am more than done with it. I’ve tried my best to keep it afloat but I had more support at the track then I ever had with my own twitch streams.

I’ve had partnership level achievements with twitch, warframe, and other gaming platforms but with no support I can’t move forward.

One thing that has taught me enough in time explained heavy in my book, I can’t keep supporting people who don’t support me and I need to support myself over everyone else. I need to get back to the point I am focusing on my own doing my own where I am doing my work, gym, garage, drift, repeat.

Prolly be my last year of Defcon, twitchcon etc… at this point I’ve been wasting my time and money for over 20 years at defcon as I only go for the talks that get released on youtube for free and I get too overwelmed with anxiety to hang out when I don’t know anyone to hang with.

I’ve done some great games, there is a few write up I am going to be releasing soon.
Why I am done with World of warcraft, how I am bored with Final Fantasy 14 but one book I am writing is how to hack like a sub-genius and with an idea of reviving my old table top game and campaigns I wrote in high school that was inspired by snes jRPG’s

I got alot of projects to work on and making cuts to somethings even tho I’ve enjoyed them they are just wasting my time.

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Re-published book – give 72 hours to reflect

Hi, just wanted to let you know I have finished writing the segment of my recent job loss as it makes a great closer to the story.

Vegas H@ckw4re – > Live on Amazon 

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Unplushed the book for now…

Just incase you where looking to see if I still had my book out on my biography. As I have closed the chapter with the casino, I feel should be added to that story as it was an unfinished ending.

I will be adding it in shortly and re-publishing it again.

 

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New job and not shutting down.

Good News everyone:
I finally have found a job, so all is good right now. I have to play catch up with bills would be helpfull

I start on the 16th, of June. Best part is they liked how much detail I went with what I did to a point they opened a new postion for me and gave me an offer that is 10x better than the casino job. After so many interviews in the past with different jobs, I found this one on pure luck. I like the team and seems that we all mesh very well. This job feels like a well deserved promotion I’ve been yearning for with the casino and have asked for but was ignored.

As I am still trying to get over the whole casino bit, I am taking it one day at a time. It was traumatic and has destroyed my self confidence. I still can’t get over the fact that someone went to great lengths to lie to HR and completely be dishonest to them and HR didn’t listen to a word I said.

Then it boils down to, I was discriminated against not harassed(big difference). Nevada sucks with this and even tho I am a protected class there is still lagging feet from the government for justice to be served and my brother is right we need to leave this state, I need to leave this state and go back to places like Central Oregon again or venture to somewhere new.  This shady busienss goes on all the time, unless businesses really do unionizes, it will contrinue to harbor even the white collar criminals who will target people like me to make sure we no longer belong in this world.

Other news, As I clear my head I am trying to focus on getting more gym time, I will be re-adjusting my twitch streaming schedule and maybe I can finally finish my write up on how I use slackware and utilize it for my fun and pentesting (CTF’s)

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Preparing to shutdown…

As time goes by my unemployment still has yet to be processed over 6 weeks now and no light at the end of the tunnel.

With 1 potential job that was interviewed last week and after reaching out even humbling myself deeply for help to someone with another company but in essence denised the return.

I am in dire straits right now, I am not ok. as of June 1st I wont be able to pay my mortgage, by july maybe august I will loose access to my phone, internet, and power and with that being said by July this site will no longer exist as I wont be able to cost the hosting company.

This week I am most likely going to start prepping to selling off the projects I’ve acquired to help adjust the costs so I might not stream a whole lot during this time this including my almost completed drift car if by parts or car as a whole.

This being in Vegas, it is like reliving my childhood over again summer time, no a/c, unknown if I can survive the summer.  Meantime, I am making backups, consolidating projects and rebuilding things when I can but I don’t see me returning to work anytime soon and with Unemployment telling me it might take up to 6 months to get a case worker,  I am royally screwed and i am trying my best to keep it together but more and more I apply for jobs and work and nothing returning.

So incase this worst case hits as it feels 90% is unless I get a miracle somehow, it has been a pleasure. Thank you for reading and somewhat show support. This is my last message here.

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