There is a list of games that is just mentally hard to play that I used to enjoy, I still enjoy but either they are feeling like a waste of my time and / or it brings back hurtful times and bad memories and you can’t make good memories alone.

My mom passed away in July of 2019, she was very close to me and her death was very sudden out of no where.

World of Warcraft:

1. Game leads to drama from it’s own communities.
2. Friends that I once played with are no longer playing nor care if we roll together anymore Rather it be PvE or PvP.  Now I play it, just to grind alone.
3.  Game changes for the worse for each DLC upgrade (Xpac) they introduce good things and take it away.  Over 15 years playing and still I don’t see why I continued on.
4. Playing this alone brings memory of my mom on when she would talk to me alot during the solo grinds and I end up crying sooner or later because of this. That is all people do, automatically expect that you grind solo and be done with it and automatically be ready for raids and mythic dungeons.  I can’t do it alone anymore I just end up in buckets of tears.
5. They removed PvPvE.. and introduced warmode that makes no vital logical sense.

Warframe:

1. Another addicting grinding game and with streaming / playing as much as I do I wanted to justify of me keep going by reaching out for partnership now content creator. To have some type of recognition. Because I feel ignored by it’s own community, I feel like playing this game is no longer worth my time.
2. The lo-fi hip-hop and the solo grinds while talking to my mom, the lo-fi hiphop was the flow when I got the news of my mom’s sudden passing and since I feel alone in this game already it brings back memories even the most hurtful ones and after a few hours of playing I am crying buckets.

Destiny 2:

1. Too much of a grind even for solo. I feel like this is a huge waste of my time and any future money spent.

FF14:

1. Another grind game with an excellent story but I feel too alone in this game and I am just not motivated enough to continue on and with no chat to engage to help me move forward I don’t feel like this is worth the time.

FF11:

1. Game that used to promote Group + Linkshell (guilds) for fun things, this was a fun game to meet and social with new people but that is now long and gone.
2. Sold my account in 2007 over bullshit with my now ex-wife and I regret it since.
3. Tried to play again but it’s a barren when it comes to being social and the game just promotes NPC’s as replacements for grinding parties… so this has became  Too boring to do all the grind again.

Sea of Thieves: 

1. Another grind and another time wasted. , placed alot of work this past year to get some dent in partnership, when I met the requirements I was ignored. Yet I am not any different than the current partners that is there.
2. Game is fun, it helps get my mind off of current events with my passing of my mom. But I feel like unless I get famous in a different place they will never partner me unless I get the lucky draw of the hat.
3.  Too much solo time and no chat to engage, so I have better solo games to play
4. The Streamer Cliché on Sneaks / Steals with Fort of the Damned, With promoting terrorizing newbie players has already lost it’s cool, especially when you do it soo much already and with even better tactics you would figure would catch an eye but… just like warframe, this community also ignores what I do and doesn’t give a shit either.

Well since my birthday on the 30th I have streamed to the platform DLive.TV.

For a while I was looking for a new opportunity to grow and start something, something to get me more of working remotely and you know there was a lot of drama has been taking place over and around twitch with in these past few years especially when you feel unappreciated, a  nobody, and you don’t get into the streamer clique of aspiring partners and you end up feeling like they have abandoned the places they once stood for and some have become hypocritical of who they are  so you tend to feel they are technically pushing you to quit all together or you tend to get angry or frustrated over it to cause massive community drama over it.

Yeah, I am not going to lie, I was there that person feeling left out and abandoned but I wasn’t the only one and  when my mom passed away and put aside all of that feelings and placed myself in a self coping and just a state of feeling alone so instead of focusing on trying to join the solo aspiring partner ranks and feel like I need to sell out or something,  I just need something new and I hear it often about that same feeling from others and I can related but all I can say is ” it is what it is and we can’t dwell on it just focus on you. there is always an opportunity out there that you will find,  just keep looking and don’t give up.”

I do have a niche on twitch but… that niche needs a boost and I got no support for it I have to find my support for it.

I tried mixer and it sucked but then it shutdown.

Then there was this new platform was mentioned by my 10 year old nephew as he is super into streaming and nerdy stuff.  When mixer shutdown, my nephew joined this place as he is too young to get into twitch.  Now recently a friend of mine who got wrongfully banned on twitch due to the lame policies and is awaiting their appeal made a switch to Dlive so I dug into some research.  So here is what I have found with some pros and cons to this network.

Dlive from my perspective as a first impression. Research gathering and here is what I see. This is ONLY what I seen as a first impression, this does not relate to what they do or currently represent.

• Started from wikipedia:
  • Red Flags seen was Alex Jones the conspiracy theorist(but was banned from the network early 2019), PewDiePie and a alot of other right wing supporter who podcast here.  This brings an influx of conspiracy theorists around and nutjobs and not a place for an Atheist such as myself. (I’ve never seen a right wing Atheist)
  • Interesting flag for thought, Decentralized and on a blockchain system and wrapped around cryptocurrency.
• Game Browsing
  • This is a new level of small time streamers hitting the top of the list, I am getting viewers out of nowhere. People diving into the category and is discovering me.
  • People with 0 or 1 viewers are at the top of the list, it feels like it is more of a round robin how the users are shuffled in this list.  But the Games are segregated by the viewers of the game itself IE: if 1 person with 1000 people is playing doom, doom will show 1000 people viewing, or if 10 people playing sea of thieves with 1 viewer than it will show 10 viewers for Sea of Thieves and this list climbs depending on viewership of the game not the streamer.  So this is a better discovery by the game played vs the streamer viewer count is higher than yours.
  • Demographics seems to be strong on Turkey, Spain, And Conspiracy Theorist Americans.  (see next info for more)
  • 24/7 music streams not being DMCA’d (I guess they don’t give a shit what you play just as long as it’s not porn.)
• Streamers
  • Different view of people, Chatting catagory I have found alot of bible studies, Right Wing “MAGA” Politics chatting, Massive Conspiracy Theorists plague this area, but wait there is more there is a few actual hippies real hippies yo! and  Turkish talkers of just chatting like you would find on twitch but from Turkey and a lot of Turkish teens.
  • The ones who have popped in and have said hi, gave a few tips here and there. But that is all really, I didn’t expect much as I am new but hey, it’s more than what I’ve gotten back in 2014 on twitch with my first time streaming a popular game.
  • I got lemon’s which is like bits for twitch but worth $0.12 per lemon as a streamers currency. You can earn lemons by viewing and lurking other channels with interactions. But you cannot withdraw this as a money making on return. Only Cryptocurrency BTT is what is done by.

2 days so far and here is some thoughts:

Cyber security side:  as this is an untapped potential I see red flag with botting and not just for viewership but for cryptocurrency farming. Another issue is there is no way to verify the user accounts created and you can totally fake your way to affiliate (200 accounts yikes) or gulp partnership.

It uses BTT as it’s cryptocurrency means and when you hit partner you get a nice 5% bonus in the stake. This being a small network, different platform that is slowly growing I am sure there is alot that can be exploited and abused if it’s not already.  Remind you this is “Cryptocurrency” blockchain based so…. abusing this platform isn’t going to hurt the whole network just a potential bigger cryptocurrency nightmare.  I actually wonder if a security researcher has done anything to Dlive. I am rather curious on this platform now.

Another view: There is NO way to tell who is wa`tching your stream this could be potentially bad or a good thing.

Political ways: This isn’t a safe place for left wingers maybe centrists but not left wing, and being this is mostly conspiracy theorists and Christians, being trans is not a place to be here. IF you do, you need an army and something to help holding the ground because you will be fighting far right who rather see you dead than to allow you to stream and potentially it’s scary to think about it and that is if they want to fight on Dlive, they might just migrate to another service. You Might capture the demographics of the Spanish (spain) or Turkish but last I remember being trans in Turkey is a really bad thing and this might be a problem.

Hope: But…  Things I do see that could unite the clans! (metaphorically speaking) You can’t advertise that you are trans, it’s not safe. (extremely not safe at all I wouldn’t do it)  Instead you have to bring topics that isn’t there like for instance.   I see the brilliant yet shitty OS “TempleOS” as a  live stream. So this would be great way to slap in your hobbies and or competitive gaming and go from there remove the political views unless you want to demostrate a political view you have to be tough and vigilant on this platform but it can be done it takes time and a good team.

Twitch is no different, it really isn’t it has the same right wing but it has the “balance”  it currently has.  Twitch is also a huge giant now, it’s not impossible but improbable to climb up because a streamers goal on twitch is to achieve partnership and will burn anyone in the process in doing so.  To get the progress to even apply you need a stepping stone and it has to be a partnership of some kind rather it be another partner or a game studio to endorse you and to be endorse you have to have some type of Return on Investment in advertising typically you have to sell out to get up.

TL;DR:
Pros:
This is a new service, it is fresh and on the ideas of a better network than Youtube or Twitch by actually giving back to the streamers.

it is a decentralized network built on a blockchain of cryptocurrency. (think of a city built ontop of a huge gold mine that you can mine yourself)

Opportunity is  different, making money from cryptocurrency then a straight payout from the platform itself.

Better opportunity to be found, network, and promote yourself on and I don’t need to sell myself out for sponsorship’s just to meet people and make money as a gamer.

Cons:

Think of all the people you have banned in the past, they had to go somewhere. Yep here is a full network of these people thanks to people like Alex Jones’s presences in the including current ones now.  Religious nutjobs and other forms of trolls live here and something else that I can not put my finger on it also exists here. With that being said, unlike twitch this can be a bit dangerous with doxing, chasers, and extreme religious nutjobs that is totally against any form of “trans” humanism.

I will update this more as the time progresses as my 30 days streaming to this platform continues.