So here… before I just close my shop up here and close this dream chapter of mine.
What is my dream?
Since 1998, I’ve had these focuses.
- First dream was to build a game, start a game devel studio called it DorkMedia in 2001… that started out as a complete web hosting & design and / or graphic design corner of mine which I still do to this day.
- RavenPC, Alienware (pre-dell) inspired sell computers with art painted cases fully custom.
- WRNET (WonderingRaven.Net) My Network.
- Community that is also an hacker space, kind of an red bs blue team ground internet cafe style setup, Teach, Build, and hack technology of old and new.
- Computer Arcade (typically esports arena now) and a gaming lounge.
- WRNet:Sec ***Newly created***
- IT Service Management with an infosec twist
- Streaming *** since 2014
- build an audience to showcase my community, business, and who I am.
I never wanted to be that dime a dozen corner store Linus tech tip store selling you malware to repair your computer so you can come back later (trust me I’ve been there with my bad business partner in Oregon, when I questioned his methods and why he is pocking my money he held me against my will and pushed me out of Oregon)
Some goals that would change my mind of dropping my dream, giving myself about 60
days max from 02/01/2021, this is not a joke.
- acknowledge I exist and some major help rather it be promotional sales + marketing, to partnership of some kind. It doesn’t matter what department it is.
- twitch streaming if I can’t acquire at least 15 sub to acquire 15sub points to have at least 20+ average viewers (not the ticker at the bottom) I need my report to show more than 4 max. If there is no one to help me with this, then what’s the point of keep going and supporting everyone I do now?
This is it… I’ve spent my time, I’ve conquered my anxiety but now it’s do or die.
When April 2nd comes around and no goals are met, I will count this a full failure and I will move onto something else will retire everything from this point on including my twitch support and streams.
I am already in the works on something else in this place. It is not the place I want to go down but it’s in the works as a punishment for my failure.